Entering a Split Personality — Chapter 66

Xiao He gaped at him.

Fan Shen's pure black military uniform wrapped around straight, slender legs, and the luster of his dark leather boots was stunning.

Black and white contrasted, and power and beauty melded together. Under this intense visual blow, Xiao He was strongly affected from his eyes to his heart!

His lover was so handsome that Xiao He didn’t want to blink. If he blinked, wouldn’t he be failing to support him?

He was so absorbed in looking at him that Xiao He didn’t notice what Fan Shen said at all.

It was a pity that the two mens’ brainwaves couldn’t connect.

Xiao He’s eyes gleamed, and he looked at him until he went silly.

But Fan Shen thought he was ignoring him.

When someone was used to a person treating them indifferently, they wouldn’t notice even if that person changed.

It wasn’t that he couldn’t see it, but that he didn’t believe it. 

Xiao He’s lack of reaction made Fan Shen’s blue eyes darken faintly.

He pursed his mouth and said coldly, “Get out!”

That ice-cold voice finally made Xiao He come back to himself.

He blinked, still not quite there. “But...I’m still taking a bath.”

“Xiao He!” Fan Shen’s voice already concealed a blazing fury. “Where do you think this is? Who do you think I am? And who do you think you are?”

He asked him three questions in a row, and Xiao He really...couldn’t answer them, fuck!

Xiao He hadn’t been provided with a script, and felt he didn’t understand anything.

He could sense that Fan Shen rejected him and was even hostile towards him, but...Xiao He was blind to it, because all that was in his mind was the sweetness between them!

And as a diehard otaku with all of his memories, Xiao He didn’t have the sensitive nerves and mind he’d had when he'd lost his memories.

He was more incisive, understanding and mature.

For the same reason...he wasn’t as easily hurt. 

Xiao He calmed his mind and began to ponder how to take care of the easily-irritated lover before his eyes.

But reality always ran counter to imagination.

Xiao He's contemplation, unconcern and indifference all turned into sharp thorns pricking Fan Shen’s heart.

He no longer exercised his patience, and he no longer needed to.

Fan Shen strode forward, his hard leather boots thumping heavily like hammers against the smooth floor. 

Xiao He quickly looked up at him.

Fan Shen lifted a hand and pressed the button to shut off the bathroom.

Xiao He still didn’t understand how to use these advanced gadgets, and he was a little bewildered.

But soon, the blue sky, white clouds and fresh, clean air all disappeared. Even the plump little fish beside him flickered and turned into a mirage. 

Xiao He’s heart tightened, and he wasn’t surprised when he felt the warm seawater beneath him beginning to thin…

Fuck! He was about to fall!

Xiao He was just about to struggle upwards, but the seawater was a step faster than him, and it all disappeared with a whoosh.

‘Thump…’

Xiao He fell and made a slippery landing on the hard floor.

“Ow...that freaking hurts…”

The water was at least a meter and a half high, and when Xiao He fell down so solidly, he felt like his butt was about to split in two.

When Xiao He fell, he groaned with pain, but his voice had always been a pleasant one. His skin was fair, delicate and damp with water droplets, so smooth it was almost more lustrous than the white floor.

Fan Shen looked down at him. His throat moved slightly, and a current of heat gathered in his stomach.

Xiao He was seducing him again.

He was quite an expert at it.

Ten years ago, with only a glance and a light smile, Xiao He had made Fan Shen embrace him with a heart full of passion when he was young.

He thought Xiao He loved him.

He thought he’d obtained him.

He’d been infatuated with him, and he wished he could give him all the finest things in the world.

He thought of him day and night, and all of his feelings were tied to him.

He’d been captivated by him, so captivated he couldn’t see anyone else, and if he could’ve only had him once, he’d have been willing to do anything.

But what had Xiao He given him?

Lies, trickery, exploitation and ruthless betrayal!

Hatred gnawed at his bones and surged from his heart, and darkness corroded Fan Shen’s blue eyes. They didn’t hold the slightest warmth, filled only with a strong desire for revenge.

“Get up!” His voice was ice-cold.

Xiao He was in pain, but he could sense that Fan Shen was in a terrible mood. Not wanting to provoke his anger, he forced himself to stand up.

It was just that his thoughts were fine, but his body didn’t cooperate.

After soaking in the water for such a long time, his legs and waist were limp. What’s more, he'd just fallen down, and his butt was throbbing with pain.

Xiao He had just found steady footing when the slipperiness beneath his feet betrayed him.

Unable to stand firmly, he fell forward.

Xiao He felt...that he was done for!

Falling on his behind and then falling on his face, he was really going to die!

Fortunately, Xiao He didn’t end up half-dead, and instead threw himself into Fan Shen’s arms.

The two men were very close, and Xiao He had been standing facing Fan Shen, so in a desperate moment, he had simply rushed towards the man in black.

Fan Shen frowned faintly. When he felt the soft body against his chest, his arms had involuntarily reached out and wrapped around his waist, steadying Xiao He's figure.

Xiao He pressed against him, naked. Fan Shen looked down at him, and could see Xiao He’s fair neck, sensual waistline and that upright posterior, slightly flushed from the fall.

This point of view was too tempting. Once thought of the feeling of that, Fan Shen’s thoughts wavered, and his throat tightened slightly with desire.

Xiao He had a false alarm, and once he calmed down, he let out a great sigh of relief.

Having escaped disaster, Xiao He felt grateful at heart. He couldn’t help looking up and calling out softly, “Fan Shen…”

He hadn’t said his thanks yet when Fan Shen suddenly pushed him away.

There was water on the floor, and with such great force, Xiao He’s butt was about to suffer pain again.

Fortunately, Xiao He was agile and grabbed the corner of Fan Shen’s jacket, managing to avoid falling down.

But under the effect of inertia, Xiao He still staggered. Unable to keep a steady footing, he immediately kneeled down. 

He kneeled before Fan Shen’s eyes.

Fan Shen’s pupils shrank abruptly, and he almost uncontrollably helped him up. But soon, he checked himself with great effort, not budging an inch.

Xiao He’s knees hit the floor with a muffled thump, and it hurt until he felt half-dead.

He was really too weak and unlucky! Even if this body was fighting off torment, it shouldn’t be this bad! 

Xiao He struggled to rise, but his butt hurt and his knees hurt, so instead of standing up, he toppled forward and his head knocked against Fan Shen's body.

At that instant, the two men stiffened into place.

Their positions at this moment had Fan Shen standing and Xiao He kneeling.

Xiao He’s head was directly facing that place of Fan Shen’s.

Xiao He’s head was pretty sensitive, so for a moment, he felt that hard, hot thing that was hard to conceal even beneath layers of clothes. 

What it was...Xiao He didn’t have to figure out.

Fan Shen bent his head and looked down at him. “What exactly do you want to do?”

Xiao He looked up at him, biting his lip, and his throat moved slightly. “Um...do you need me to help?”

His words and expression smashed into Fan Shen’s heart like a heavy hammer.

The respected, aloof and remote man, whom he had admired, been infatuated with and hated for ten years, was now kneeling before him, his fair body clean and beautiful. He looked up at him with delicate, pretty features, his eyes soft and dewy, seeming to overflow with strong, deep love. He bit his lip, seducing him with his soft voice. 

Perhaps he was plotting something.

Perhaps he was thinking of deceiving him again.

Perhaps he was using this surface-level tenderness to weave a silken net, in order to trap him and cause his death. 

However...Fan Shen was still so aroused he couldn’t control himself.

—Love? Don’t joke around, you couldn’t compare to even one hair on his head.  

—Sleeping with you, I only feel incomparable disgust and loathing!

—Fan Shen, don’t get carried away by wishful thinking, are you worthy of being with me?

The young man’s cold, indifferent voice and cruel, pitiless words were all engraved in his mind, making it so that he didn’t dare to forget them for even a moment.

How could he forget how cunning Xiao He was?

How could he forget how despicable he was?

How could he forget everything he had brought him!

The nightmares, torment and pain that he could never free himself from.

It was all because of him! How could he forget?

His passion extinguished and his eyes ice-cold, Fan Shen smiled lightly and lifted Xiao He’s chin. “Alright, come help me, use your mouth.” 

Xiao He was startled, and a little embarrassed.

They’d done everything together before...but...well…

Forget it, forget it, it wasn’t his first time anyway. Fan Shen was the one who’d done this more often before, but he should repay him occasionally. Fan Shen seemed to have something bothering him this time, so he’d better coax him a little.  

Xiao He hesitated a little, then reached out and began to undo his belt.

Fan Shen looked at him without moving, looked at the shyness in the depths of his eyes, his slightly flushed cheeks and his willing manner…it almost seemed like…

No...it didn’t seem like anything.

This was all just a show he put on.

Wasn’t he the best at pretending?

A burst of pain stabbed his heart, and Fan Shen irritatedly pushed away Xiao He’s hands.

Xiao He looked up in confusion.

But before he could do anything, Fan Shen hauled him up and grabbed him by the waist, pushing him up against the wall. As if to vent his anger, he drove in roughly.

Without any foreplay, and using a position like this, Xiao He couldn’t help but groan softly with pain. 

But fortunately, his body was quite resilient, and after the initial pain, he was soon aroused.

His back against the wall, Xiao He could only loop his arms tightly around Fan Shen’s neck, constantly letting out broken sounds.

Fan Shen’s speed was fast, and he wasn’t gentle at all. At first he was venting his anger, but he gradually lost himself in it a little.

Xiao He’s voice was too pleasant, his taste too sweet, and his body held a charm that could make him lose himself endlessly in it.

But...how could he let Xiao He deceive him again? 

At the last moment, just when Xiao He was almost screaming with pleasure, Fan Shen leaned down, bit him fiercely on the neck and said lowly, “I should really let the whole world see just how lewd the famous Imperial First Marshal is in his bones!”

***

Xiao He stayed in the bathroom he liked so much for almost an entire night.

He really loved doing this with Fan Shen, but to be honest, this time Fan Shen was really a little fierce, so fierce he was powerless to resist. 

What was even more terrible was that he still hadn’t found a chance to speak.

Because Fan Shen simply didn’t allow him to speak. If he called his name, Fan Shen wouldn’t allow it; if he wanted to kiss him, he simply stuffed his thing into his mouth; if he took the initiative a little, he’d prick him with his words.

Xiao He didn’t bother about it too much, but he was quite worried. 

With such a high guard up against him, how was he supposed to communicate with Fan Shen normally?

Without any communication, how could they talk of love or trust?

Without any trust...how exactly was he supposed to treat him?!

Xiao He lay on the bed and gazed at the window, lost in thought. With a Fan Shen like this, if he only catered to the other man's mood, could he really appease him?

This was the so-called, “having someone give you a pillow just as you felt sleepy.” 

Xiao He couldn’t see Fan Shen during the day, but the crybaby Lin Fei came to keep him company.

After thinking it over for half the day, Xiao He was about to simply say he’d lost his memories.

But before he could get to that point, Lin Fei gave him something good on his own. 

“Marshal, if your body’s recovered, do you have time to take care of military affairs?”

Xiao He: Damn, how come I have such a high-end character setting this time? I can even handle military affairs!

But he had to continue acting. “Alright, sure.”

Lin Fei’s face relaxed, and he hurriedly handed him something that looked like a pair of glasses. “Here you go, Marshal.”

Xiao He didn’t understand this futuristic setting too well, but fortunately he wasn’t someone from ancient times either. After pondering and reflecting, he had an idea of what was going on, so he just put on the glasses.

And then...all the memories poured wildly into his mind.

Xiao He frowned hard. He couldn’t quite take it at first, but he soon grabbed onto the most crucial, heart-piercing and stupefying memory.

Ten minutes later.

Xiao He went crazy.

This...this...was really the scummiest man on earth, damn it!

He was this much of a scumbag, and he was still calculating how to make Fan Shen fall in love with him?

He was already incredulous that Fan Shen hadn’t killed him first thing!

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