Entering a Split Personality — Chapter 76

He’d left for a very short time, so in the mental world, only about a second had flashed past. It was completely imperceptible.

They were still kissing. Xiao He had broken away for a little bit, but that didn’t prevent him from sinking into it again.

Xiao He couldn’t be any more familiar with being with Fan Shen.

For the sake of placating this disappointed Fan Shen, comforting this personality that was on the verge of collapse and making him pull himself together again, Xiao He used the simplest and crudest of methods to put him at ease.

If you hated someone, you wouldn’t take the initiative to kiss him.

This was the message Xiao He wanted to convey to him.

He kissed him out of love, and he embraced him because he liked him. No matter what had happened before, Xiao He wanted to let him know his feelings at this moment, his sincere feelings. 

I love you, so don’t despair like this. 

Fan Chen, you’re my beloved. This fact would never be wrong.

Fan Chen had yearned for Xiao He too long in vain. Now that he’d suddenly gotten him, besides a strong sense of unreality, there was only indelible, inerasable passion that seemed as if it could drown him like the ocean.

Fan Chen couldn’t bear to let him go, for fear that if he did, Xiao He would leave, like a flower in a mirror or the pale moon in the water, disappearing in an instant.

But Xiao He was afraid of hurting him. It was impossible to be optimistic about the condition of Fan Chen’s health. It hadn’t been easy for him to wrap up Fan Chen's wounds. If they opened again, this wouldn’t be worth it.

“Ah...Fan Chen.” Xiao He opened his mouth with difficulty.

Fan Chen blocked it up again.

Xiao He groaned softly, letting out fragmented sounds with difficulty. “Wait...wait a moment, Fan Chen...wait until you recover a little…”

His tone was soft, and the words he spoke were sweet as honey.

Fan Chen’s heart trembled, and he couldn’t help but look down at him. “After I recover, what will we do?”

When he asked him this so frankly, Xiao He felt a little embarrassed.

Fan Chen's words were innocent and didn’t hint at anything, but how come he felt like they weren’t that innocent now?

The man in Fan Chen's arms had crimson cheeks, and his just-kissed lips were as bright as tender petals blooming.

He’d only seen Xiao He like this in his dreams, and never once in reality.

Xiao He...Xiao He...Fan Chen’s throat moved slightly, and he couldn’t resist lowering his head and landing a kiss on his lips. He asked in a rough voice, “Can we? Right now.” 

How could Xiao He fail to understand what he was saying? His heart tightened, and he hastily said, “You’re wounded, don’t mess around.”

His words were full of worry and affection. That pleasant sound could melt ice.

Fan Chen couldn’t quite tell if this was a dream or reality, but it was fine no matter which one it was. He was glad, happy and full of enjoyment. 

If this was a dream, he was alright with never waking from it.

Not wanting to delay a moment longer, Fan Chen bent his head down and kissed that fair neck and sensual collarbone.

“Xiao He...Xiao He...don’t reject me.” 

The man’s rough voice had a steady of a tone as always, but the faint tremble in its depths betrayed his inner uneasiness. 

Once he thought of everything Fan Chen had silently endured for the last few decades, Xiao He’s heart softened into a complete mess. How could he still have the heart to refuse him?

The setting wasn't right, Fan Chen was injured and there was someone asleep nearby...but Xiao He didn’t want to care about those things anymore.

In any case...this was his world.

No...this was the world Fan Shen shared with him.

Once he thought of this and came round, Xiao He wrapped his arms around Fan Chen’s neck, lifted his head and offered himself up.

When he hadn’t responded, Fan Chen had already been alight like a wildfire. When Xiao He was this seductive, it was enough to drive the man kissing him wild.

His love was beyond words, and his affection was endless.

Even distracted, Xiao He didn’t forget to mind Fan Chen’s injuries. For the sake of not opening his wounds, he was a lot more proactive than usual. 

But the result didn’t protect Fan Chen’s wounds the way Xiao He had imagined.

Instead, it thoroughly stimulated Fan Chen, making him do it more fiercely, intensely and recklessly.

By the end, Xiao He couldn’t even take care of himself, let alone bother about Fan Chen’s wounds. He could only grip him tightly and hold him hard, rising and falling like a little boat in a swelling, stormy sea, swaying back and forth, completely out of his own control.

Once they finished their bout of passion, the two men held each other, both feeling a bone-deep satisfaction. 

Fan Chen couldn’t bear to let go of him from beginning to end. He kissed him and caressed him as if Xiao He were a treasure he’d been dreaming of all his life and had finally taken possession of, only able to express the overflowing joy in his heart in this way. 

Xiao He was so tired he didn’t want to move, but when Fan Chen kissed him like this, he couldn’t help reacting again. As things went on, they actually went for another round.

After this, some of Xiao He’s reason finally returned to him, and he hurriedly got up, wanting to take care of Fan Chen’s wounds.

But after he got down and carefully examined him, he couldn’t help but blink.

His...where did his wounds go? 

The shocking, life-threatening wounds from just now had completely disappeared.

The man before him had smooth skin, sensual and vigorous. Xiao He couldn’t see the slightest weakness in him.

Xiao He looked on and finally reacted. 

It looked like...this was a display of his personality’s power.

He was no longer in despair and had satisfied himself. Filled with an intense desire to live, his wounds had healed themselves.

In contrast with Xiao He’s distraction, Fan Chen’s eyes were filled with shock.

He had no idea why his wounds had recovered.

But Xiao He was in a great mood. He no longer had to worry about future consequences, so…

He turned over and sat on Fan Chen’s thighs, in the perfect position to kiss him on the lips. After giving him a few rubs, he said softly, “How about another round?”

Fan Chen was startled, but he soon pressed hard against his lips, held him by the waist and drove in without any scruples. 

All Xiao He could let out were sweet, pleased moans.

Arousal grew and desire rose.

Xiao He had stirred up the fire himself, but in the end, it was him who kept begging to be let off.

Fan Chen finally felt bad for him, and let go of him when Xiao He was about to pass out from exhaustion. 

Xiao He really wanted to go to sleep and rest, but there was still something weighing on his mind, so he couldn’t sleep.

Lying in Fan Chen’s arms, Xiao He took a slow breath in and said softly, “Fan Chen, I want to talk to you.”

When he began with this sentence, the man behind him immediately stiffened slightly.

Knowing what Fan Chen was worried about, Xiao He sighed and hurriedly said, “Fan Chen, relax, I love you, really love you, more than you imagine.” 

He spoke so sweetly, but it still felt unreal to Fan Chen.

Happiness had come so suddenly that it was hard for him to believe in it.

Not wanting him to escape, and even more unwilling to let him continue feeling apprehensive, Xiao He sat up and met Fan Chen’s eyes. “Do you love me?”

Fan Chen looked into his shining eyes and said without the slightest hesitation, “Yes, I love you.” 

He had loved him for an entire decade, loved him for countless days and nights, and he would continue to love him forever.

Xiao He’s eyes crinkled, and he pressed against his lips. “Me too!”

Fan Chen looked at him, and his black eyes couldn’t help but soften a great deal.

Xiao He looked at him unblinkingly, and said the words he’d organized in his mind. “You might think this is absurd or unbelievable, or that I’m teasing you, but...please believe me, all of this is true.”

He spoke so seriously that Fan Chen couldn’t help but frown slightly.

Xiao He took a deep breath and said slowly, “Fan Chen, this is just your mental world. In reality, you’re in a coma, and I…”

He spoke on about all of this, and as Fan Chen listened, his eyes were full of disbelief. 

But Xiao He’s words didn’t come to a stop. “Fan Chen, you don’t know this, but I’ve already met many versions of you. The first time, you were the most magnificent elf in the world, the second time, you were the child I brought up to adulthood myself, and the third time, you were my master…”

Little by little, Xiao He spoke of everything he’d experienced. For Fan Chen in this futuristic world, it wasn’t hard to understand.

Once he said all of this, Xiao He came to the key point. “Fan Chen, if you don’t believe me, why not consider this for a moment? Why did your wounds miraculously recover? Because you wanted them to recover. Why did no one come to bother us in this jail you’re imprisoned in? Because you didn’t want anyone to come…”

As Xiao He spoke on slowly, Fan Chen’s tightly creased brows slowly relaxed.

“In reality, do we love each other?”

When he asked this, Xiao He said with a smile, “Of course! I’m the man who suits you most in the world, and the one who loves you most as well! In reality, we love each other deeply, and we’ll stay together forever.”

When Xiao He said this softly, the corners of Fan Chen’s mouth couldn’t help but rise. “Do you want me to wake up?”

“That’s right.” Xiao He kissed him. “Fan Chen, everything in reality is more real and beautiful. I miss you, miss you a lot. I really wish that you could wake up and kiss me.”

His soft voice was like the refreshing water of a creek, flowing slowly into Fan Chen’s heart. He felt an intense warmth, and the joy in his heart seemed like it was about to take on substance and bubble out.

He was about to kiss Xiao He back when his mind suddenly moved.

Several scenes suddenly appeared and flashed through his mind on a loop. Fan Chen couldn’t help but be startled.

Xiao He noticed the change in him and asked softly, “Fan Chen?”

Fan Chen abruptly grabbed Xiao He’s arm and said slowly, “Ayr...Fan Shen...Yun Qing…”

He said these names lowly, but Xiao He’s eyes abruptly widened. He hadn’t told Fan Chen those names, so how did he know them?

Xiao He lit up, and he questioned him anxiously, “Fan Chen, what did you remember? Tell me, what did you remember?”

Fan Chen looked at Xiao He in a daze, and at last his eyes overflowed with soft warmth. “Thank you, Xiao He, thank you, I’m really...lucky to have you.”

Startled, Xiao He still wanted to ask him a few more questions, but the man before his eyes turned into a phantom and disappeared without a trace.

The personality fragment returned because it realized the truth?

Xiao He felt a little relieved, but a little disappointed as well.

He’d had Fan Chen’s glowing warmth just now, but now only he was left. He couldn’t avoid being disappointed.

But...Xiao He soon regained his motivation!

No matter what, it looked like the treatment had been very successful this time. Fan Chen even had the memories from the last few times, this was definitely a great success!

Fan Chen had merged back in, but there was still Fan Shen left.

Xiao He didn’t dare to take this lightly. After dressing neatly, he was about to leave the prison and hurriedly go to find Fan Shen.

But when he had just fastened the last button, the even sound of footsteps came from outside.

Xiao He’s heart jumped, and just as he stood up, a man dressed in a black military uniform strode in.

The man’s azure eyes swept over the cell and abruptly chilled.

The prisoner in the cell had disappeared without a trace…

Fan Shen’s gaze fell on Xiao He, and his voice was as cold as a midwinter night. “So you put on this act just for the sake of setting him free?”

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